Your Primal Fear

Fear that your way of viewing the world is wrong


Want proof that most people live with a deep fear they are constantly trying to disguise?

All you have to do is teach a college philosophy class and watch what happens as one person after another finds their most basic beliefs threatened. See how people sputter, how their ears and cheeks turn red, how they desperately flail around trying to find a logical argument to support their dearly-held beliefs. You can see the terror in their eyes.

Watch students drop out after two weeks, some of them honest enough to say, “This class is threatening my beliefs.” Translation: I am scared to death that this class is going to cause a deep crisis in my life and I don’t know how I’ll get through it. I’m afraid I’ll discover that the logical reasons for being Christian aren’t any better than the logical reasons for *not* being Christian (or Muslim, or Buddhist, or Wiccan, or atheist, etc.), and that scares me to death. So I’m going to quit, and pretend I don’t know the things I’ve come to know.

The Matrix translation: I’ll have the blue pill, thank you.

We are fragile people, running from anything that might hold our beliefs up to the light, but then defending that unstable fortress vigorously, as if we are certain we are correct, even to the point of getting angry at anyone who challenges us or refuses to accept our version of reality.

This is human nature. We try to act strong and confident, but we’re terrified someone might be able to get us to question our reality. That’s precisely why you should be most suspicious of those who admit to the least doubt. This isn’t an indicator of strong faith, but of a deeper-than-usual fear which causes them to be especially rigid, so it is not only others who are not permitted to question their beliefs, but they themselves.

If Hitler or Stalin had been willing to allow someone to challenge their beliefs, they could have been proved wrong in ten minutes. This because, like all homicidal belief systems, their beliefs were irrational. Instead they chose to cover over their doubt with what looked like strength by exterminating millions of people. ISIS is engaged in this same mindless work today. Defending, reacting, and simply killing all who threaten them, lest they be exposed to themselves as what they are — mindless and evil automatons, whose real beliefs are irrational and therefore without any sensible defense.

On some level we are all doing that work — defending, reacting, and ignoring, criticizing, or downplaying those who threaten our way of seeing the world.

Once upon a time I was naive enough to think Christians would see this pattern (since this mindless defensiveness and reactivity is what killed Jesus), or at least *want* to see it, and that most would understand that God, who is truth, calls us into truth and that we have nothing to protect or fear.

How wrong I was. As a group, Christians are as deeply rooted in unreality, in defending, reacting, and fighting against truth, as anyone — oftentimes more.

All because of fear, which Christians know, in their minds at least, perfect love drives out of us. Still, most choose fear over love and in today’s political environment, I’m sorry to say more are actively choosing fear than I have ever seen before.

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2 thoughts on “Your Primal Fear

  1. Great stuff as usual, David. Loved this. I am not afraid to admit I have doubts of Gods existence or that at times in my life I’ve thought he’d abandoned me, not the reverse. I have multiple personalities and one of them told my brother “I don’t believe in God anymore”. Now on a conscious level, I would never entertain the thought. I believed there was a God since I was a little kid, but there is a part of me that has no belief whatsoever. I told this to a friend one time, he has a degree in theology and also is a social worker/therapist, and he said everyone doubts at times. I disagreed and said there’s a part of us that doubts God’s very existence ALL the time. lol. I would have never believed it either unless I had experienced it myself. I also went through a desert period in my life where I just knew that God had abandoned me in my suffering even though I also knew that since His word said He would never do this that it was impossible. There was a part of me that was quite convinced that God had left me and would never come back because I used to pray and plead and read my bible and go to church and I felt all alone. I love to think new things about God and learn about him from others that are biblically based. The joy of learning something new about God is a wonder every day, and it’s impossible to know it all, or even know it for sure that how we are interpreting is God’s way of thinking and not our own, so why pretend? He reveals truths to me, but I need the Spirit to reveal this stuff, not my human brain’s understanding. I try to make others think, and they try to make me think, and it’s the funnest part of my life. I have a friend Tom who sees the bible in a way I’ve never encountered because he has this human computer of a brain that few people on the planet have, and he is on fire for God, and will know more than I will ever know, but I still question him. He’s always right so far, but I sure learn a lot by asking questions. lol. He’s not always right about life, or everything about God, but he sure knows God in a way I’ve never seen. So, thanks for the article,and keep making people think…By the way, if you have a question you’ve never been able to figure out, email me at and I can ask Tom for an interpretation. For instance I asked him why was Jesus “deeply troubled” in the Lazarus story. The answer he gave me kind of blew me away,and answered it fully. He used the psychology of the mind and who Christ was to answer, so it was great stuff. Think about that one and if you want to know his answer, email me that too. As a therapist and a pastor you would love it.

    • Thanks, Psybear. Your condition of DID would in itself bring great confusion and spiritual chaos to a lot of people who would wonder what it says about God that a person could deal with something like this. You are very brave. I know it has created huge issues for you, but congratulations on all the progress you are making!

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